Saturday, February 28, 2009

Alice's Restaurant


I had decided to take a brief hiatus from blogging when I realized it was the one year anniversary of the Wordzzle. Thanks Raven for a year’s worth of wordy delight!!!



ThisWeek's Ten Word Challenge will be: Netflix, mortgage, skunk, flagrant, the New York Times, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, perpendicular, geometry, crabby, shoveling snow

Mini Challenge: pragmatic, crystal ball, laundry, safflower oil, Gregorian chants, skunk

If I had the pocket edition of the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, where would I go? The thought was utterly capricious. It had no place in a purposeful day. But the more Barry Stern tried to extinguish it, the more it flared up like a trick candle on a birthday cake.

Why not just pretend, cajoled the Cat in the Hat. What if you could transport yourself anywhere in the universe? Like a mouse slinking through the period at the end of this sentence.

No cartilage. No need for Archimedes, geometry or perpendiculars. A tunnel to your dreams.

Barry had cultivated his pragmatic side so that his mortgage was on automatic pay, safflower oil was substituted for butter, and his whites were meticulously sorted from his darks on laundry day.

The hypnotic drone of the spin cycle helped to release Harry from all his tedious concerns. Well just for fun, then.

If I could go anywhere.

I would

be

swirling fine cognac at the Café Mandolin on the Adriatic

locking legs in a sinuous tango under Piazzollo’s embrazo

pin feathers tucked in a death defying peregrine dive

anemone swaying in the shallows of a sandbar in the Antilles

Casal’s quiver disturbing the strings

my five year old self riding the comet’s tail

But what good is all this reverie when I am stuck in Saskatchawan shoveling snow with trace of skunk in it? Enough to make one crabby and downright dejected if not for the Netflix movie and a Greygoose greyhound I have planned for this evening. While I don’t have a crystal ball, I do know that the Sunday edition of the New York Times will be sitting on my stoop tomorrow morning. And I will wake to fresh dark roast and Gregorian chants on the turntable. Antiphons, if not antipodes.

Still. If I could have one flagrant wish. I would go to Alice’s Restaurant where you can get anything you want. And I would order everything bathed in butter and draped with bacon.

Friday, February 13, 2009

In celebration of love

I am not a Hallmark girl

But I do like to celebrate

These posts we write

cross borders

alter geography

They are love letters

Off the richter scale.


In celebration of love. Here’s to you…

oh Yoko!


Antony - Everglades


Charmaine Nevelle




dance me to the end of love









Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Fata Morgana

a giggle

gathers mirth

on its tumble

to full bodied laughter


winter rays

bend light

a blind kiss

in an unplowed lot


May bows to December

red rustles ancestral dreams

blue vibrates with bold pleasure

green inhales deep memory

yellow jiggles the holy yolk


December arcs to May

outside the visible spectrum

the marsh marigold

signals a prudent bee’s

dizzying descent


a common barn swallow

flares his chestnut collar

in an eternal dance


As May bends to December

and back again

light spreads


you mean to say

that fata morgana

is mirage?

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Wordzzle – Week 48



Ten Word Challenge: snow and ice, vegetarian chili, pampered kitty, anthropology, do you own a home, coronation, you can change the world, hideous curtains, stammering, premonitions


Ten Word Challenge

Simple Pleasures

The Pampered Kitty has become a household name. If you google IRPP (Institute for the Recovery and Promotion of Pleasure), you will find that last year, its membership surpassed AARP’s. Applications for the Academy for the Cultivation of Bliss (ACB) have enjoyed nothing short of a meteoric trajectory.

Mimi Lemieux, the unlikely reigning queen of the thriving project, is scheduled to tell her story on Oprah next Monday. I had the good fortune to interview Ms. Lemieux in her Gainesville office today. What follows is the story of the humble beginnings of the Spreading Pleasure Moment by Moment movement. ( spread m&ms.org.)


One day Professor Lenore Hanes returned to her spartan studio after a particularly demoralizing department meeting. The relentless petty bickering had overwhelmed Ms. Hane’s legendary composure and reduced her to stammering incoherently in defense of the nobility of anthropology. In an uncharacteristic move, she exited abruptly, flipping her Dr. Scholl’s inserts at the fomenting factions.

Secure in the sanctity of her abode, Professor Lenore Hanes poured herself a drink and asked herself some hard questions. Do you own your own home? Do you really believe that you can change the world by digging for fossils? Don’t you think that it’s time for something more satisfying than vegetarian chili out of a can? She glanced at the hideous curtains which she had pledged to replace ten years ago upon signing the lease at Grand Vista Estates. All she could see was her dreams blowing in the wind.

Professor Hanes’ frustration had been percolating for years, but she had cultivated a threshold for pain. Today’s contentious session had truly taken her to the brink.

In the middle of a snow and ice storm, in the dead of winter, Lenore allowed herself to experience the warmth spreading in her chest. She watched as Solange luxuriously stretched to her full Abyssinian stature. Then placed an old bossa nova recording on the turntable and began gently swaying to Jobim’s lush harmonics. She found that the sinuous swing of her hips delivered a sweet sensation not unlike an accidental saunter in soft drizzle. Solange clairvoyantly began threading her silkiness through Lenore’s bare legs.


Ms. Hanes did not forget the delight she experienced on this momentous evening. In fact, she began to deliberately resurrect her forgotten sensuality on a daily basis. She dubbed the practice sacred tooth flossing.


Over time, what Lenore discovered was that when you say yes to pleasure, it spreads like contagion to every outpost of your being. Not unlike unearthing treasures of lost civilizations, Lenore Hanes would devote herself to exhuming buried desire. At the seasoned age of 62, Lenore Hanes had found her calling.


No Calvinist caution or insidious premonitions of failure could interfere with the unfolding of her vision: an invitation to pleasure, a revitalization of our sacred connections.

Over the course of her personal exploration, Mimi developed a ritual for dedicated initiates which she calls coronation. It involves anointing with chrism in a consecrated ceremony. But that is all she would disclose.



Mega Challenge


Ten Word Challenge: snow and ice, vegetarian chili, pampered kitty, anthropology, do you own a home, coronation, you can change the world, hideous curtains, stammering, premonitions

Mini Challenge: Is there a doctor in the house, blowing in the breeze, shadows, comedian, sleeping disorder

Is there a doctor in the house?

Chester Summers suffers from a syndrome which to this day remains a medical mystery. The cluster of symptoms does not fit any discrete diagnostic category. Mr. Summer’s malady incorporates certain familiar elements. For example, his nocturnal ramblings suggest some type of sleeping disorder. The serial convulsive episodes followed by incoherent stammering indicate an underlying neurological condition. His gnawing premonitions of global collapse infer a delusional disorder.


It all started innocently enough. The initial bout was precipitated by a bowl of vegetarian chili reluctantly ingested at a You Can Change the World conference in the summer of 2000. Chester retired to his hotel room after the day’s activities with an unpleasant sensation of queasiness and vertigo. The hotel’s décor had not been updated since the seventies. And the vibrant swirling patterns on the upholstery only amplified his vague feelings of discomfort. His eyes drifted lazily to the hideous curtains blowing in the breeze.


Exasperated with the turn of events, Chester turned on the tv for relief. Aimlessly flipping through the 1012 channels, he stumbled onto a program called Grand Rounds. Sounded promising. Maybe it would address his recently acquired affliction. Unfortunately for Chester, it turned out to be an interview with an eminent animal psychiatrist about her new book, How to Heal your Pampered Kitty. Next up, a show deceptively titled Do you own your own home was in fact an infomercial about how to buy distressed properties. Rotating through the vacuous world of cable, Chester encountered the full complement of amateur comics previewing their routines. And a bevy of fanatical preachers trying to save souls by breaking the sound barrier.


Because of his erratic sleep patterns, Chester was referred to do a sleep study. He became so agitated in his unfamiliar clinical surroundings that he bit through the electrodes attached to his scalp and escaped into the night with nothing but his gown. Needless to say, the findings were inconclusive.


A neurologist examined him for his epileptic episodes and recommended laugh therapy. He diligently viewed a retrospective of the Marx Brothers shenanigans. While Chester decided there was no comedian alive or dead who could rival the exhilarating wit of Groucho, he continued to be afflicted with his tics and tectonic troubles.


A thorough evaluation by to a psychiatrist resulted in a prescription for snow and ice therapy. This consisted of ritual dips in icy ponds followed by vigorous drumming. The only visible outcome was a lingering winter cold.

Because of persistent high levels of anxiety, Chester continued to have trouble sleeping. To distract himself, he watched tv into the wee hours. Invariably, he would be lulled by the whir of blenders or the soothing hiss of white noise.


Often, he would awaken stunned and disoriented in a cold sweat. One indelible night, he leapt off the couch, claiming to have seen shadows of his ancestors. It was a regal setting, a coronation. The courtiers were cautiously optimistic. But the emperor turned out to be an unschooled and indolent hooligan easily swayed by the counsel of a cabal of unscrupulous advisors. And his wife, a former librarian, knowing full well the power of words, banned poetry in the kingdom.

“Armageddon!!!” He would rail in the middle of the night. Peppering the slumbering suburb with apocalyptic prognostications. He paraded around the periphery of the cul de sacs with a neon placard plucked straight from The Wizard of Oz. “I would turn back if I were you”

Ultimately, he decided that the answers to today’s thorniest problems could be found in the past. He booked himself on an anthropological tour of the Incan Empire. Who was it who said: Those who cannot learn from history are doomed to repeat it.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Strong at the Broken Places

A response to Maithri and all the gentle souls who gather in the spirit of peace at the Soaring Impulse


"The yellow star? Oh well, what of it? You don't die of it ..."

(Poor Father! Of what then did you die?)

from Night, Elie Weisel


Elie Wiesel, in his darkest days and deepest despair, never gave up. In fact, he got so angry at god that he argued daily with him. This is why he is a survivor. Not because he escaped the death camps with his life, but because he cared enough to become a witness. To tell his own story in the form of a cautionary tale and to stand up every waking day for peace and human dignity in this most imperfect of worlds.


Strong at the broken places.


Elie Weisel. A living testament not only to the human capacity for endurance but to the alchemy of the human spirit.

For pain, if not translated, becomes its own religion.


“I swore never to be silent whenever and wherever human beings endure suffering and humiliation. We must always take sides.” Elie Weisel.


If someone in a room tells a joke at the expense of another and we laugh or even watch those around us laugh while remaining silent, who in fact is doing the telling?? If we choose expedience over truth who is doing the telling? If we choose to sacrifice a designated person or group for temporary relief from our own existential unrest, who in fact is doing the telling?


For this is how lies are spread and bigotry takes hold. One can only commit acts of violence by dehumanizing, objectifying, labeling an individual or group as “other”. In the process, the oppressed are inevitably damaged and often destroyed. But it is the oppressor who without doubt loses her/his humanity.

If we are unwilling to look at our own brokenness, if we don’t find a way to infuse our personal pain with a larger meaning, suffering soon becomes a way of life. Reflected in the chaotic world of a child trapped in the cycle of abuse or in the epic annihilation of a people caught in the crossfire.

The state of Israel, which shelters survivors of one of the worst genocidal campaigns in modern history is today one of the most virulent perpetrators of racism. Just as some victims of abuse become violators, Israel has migrated through the looking glass, from colonized to colonizer, perpetuating a never ending cycle of violence.

The conflict in Kosovo had its roots in eugenics and racial nationalism.

The protracted massacre in Rwanda was fanned by the polarizing impact of colonialism which mythologized racial stereotypes to its advantage.

And Congo. I have no words.

Racism is complex and deep. I'm glad we are talking about it.


Strong in the broken places.


We are each one of us survivors. What do we make of our salvaged lives? That is all that matters.

Unless we realize the gift, we become strangers in a strange land, sleepwalking through our days, merely keeping time.


Strong in the broken places.


I have the deepest respect for Barack Obama – for his intelligence, his grace, his call to service and for his extraordinary ability to motivate millions to reimagine and repair this tired and tattered nation.

However, I am disturbed when he fails to articulate a clear and identifiable vision. During his candidacy, Obama spoke so eloquently of hope, but did not say hope for what or how. De facto, he became a tabla raza on which his supporters projected their hopes and their dreams. I am sorry that Obama did not reveal more of himself. And I regret that the constituency didn’t ask the questions that begged to be asked. It is because of this failure to have an authentic conversation that so many today feel disappointed, forgotten, betrayed.

Obama is a man who as a boy straddled multiple worlds and became fluent in the vernacular of all of them. In order to remain safe, he learned to be cautious. In order to be valued, he learned how not to offend. These skills finely honed make for deft maneuvering in the political sphere, and a facility to negotiate and inspire. Unfortunately this cross border training also results in ambiguity in human relations .


One cannot be all things to all people. And there comes a time when we must take a stand for love and inclusion, which of necessity means taking a stand against hatred and bigotry.


I fear that we have become complacent about our democracy. We go to the polls every four years, perform our civic duty and retire to the numbing comfort of television (fill in your narcotic of choice). We count on our leaders to save us. We have forgotten what we the people constitute the source of political authority. It is up to us to reinvigorate our commitment to community and articulate our vision to our elected representatives. Like every other living thing a democracy requires daily tending.


The word postracial has been widely used to describe this presidency, this moment in time. In my opinion, it is wishful thinking to believe that we can expunge the stain of slavery simply by electing a man born to a Kenyan father. That we as a nation have taken this step is a measure of the collective progress we have made. We have opened a door to a dialogue about the deep wounds we have sustained. We have arrived at a new threshold to potential healing.


Strong at the broken places


James Cone, an African American scholar, professor and author of The Cross and the Lynching Tree, insists that in order to come to some kind of reconciliation on race, we must break the silence. We are inextricably bound to each other in a matrix of violence unless and until we can talk about those things that are “deep and ugly”. He goes on to say, “America needs to understand itself as not being innocent.” He sees hope in exorcising our shared demons and becoming “beloved community” only when we speak out against hate and oppression.


It is delusional to even imagine that we are living in a post racial world when our GBLT sisters and brothers are denied a seat at the table.

Rick Warren is a person who hides behind “faith” to preach fear, exploits his pulpit to sow seeds of division. It was unfitting for this man to give the invocation at the inauguration of such an auspicious journey.

In contrast, what a delight it was to partake of the words of compassion, tenderness and playfulness so deeply rooted in the black American experience delivered by Reverend Lowery. He didn’t deny the common struggle because he has lived it. Reverend Lowery was the longtime president of the Southern Christian Leadership Conference, which he co-founded in 1957, with the Revs. Martin Luther King Jr., Ralph David Abernathy and Fred Shuttlesworth. His uplifting message was truly the highlight of the day for me.

“God of our weary years, god of our silent tears, thou, who has brought us thus far along the way, thou, who has by thy might led us into the light, keep us forever in the path we pray…

Restore stability, mend our brokenness, heal our wounds, and deliver us from the exploitation of the poor, of the least of these, and from favoritism toward the rich, the elite of these…


We thank you for the empowering of thy servant, our 44th president, to inspire our nation to believe that yes we can work together to achieve a more perfect union.”


Strong in the broken places.


Reverend Lowery is a strong advocate for equality for the GBLT community. He speaks unwaveringly in support of the disenfranchised.

"Remembering the voices who have told us to wait on justice, we dispute the notion that issues of race and nationality are so overwhelming that to fight for another issue of injustice is to water down the movement, For the storehouses of God's justice do not run low, and we must recognize the interconnectedness of all forms of oppression if we are ever to achieve the kingdom. The realm of God is at hand."


Many people did not hear what the openly gay Episcopal Bishop Gene Robinson said as he delivered the invocation at Monday’s We Are One inauguration concert.

HBO's broadcast started after the invocation and Robinson's microphone wasn't turned on.


Strong at the broken places


Robinson began, with this:

"O God of our many understandings, we pray that you will bless us with tears –- tears for a world in which over a billion people exist on less than a dollar a day, where young women in many lands are beaten and raped for wanting an education, and thousands die daily from malnutrition, malaria, and AIDS."


He asked God to:

"Bless us with patience and understanding that our new president is a human being, not a messiah."


And, he prayed:

"Please, God, keep him (Obama) safe. We know we ask too much of our presidents, and we’re asking far too much of this one. We implore you, O good and great God, to keep him safe. Hold him in the palm of your hand that he might do the work we have called him to do, that he might find joy in this impossible calling, and that in the end, he might lead us as a nation to a place of integrity, prosperity, and peace. Amen."


I’ve printed these excerpts from Rev Robinson’s offering in the interest of giving a voice to the silenced.


It is in the habit of maintaining the illusion of separation that our natural impulse for connection is lost.

Ubuntu in Zulu means a person is a person through other persons. An attempt at an expanded definition has been made by Archbishop Desmond Tutu:


“A person with Ubuntu is open and available to others, affirming of others, does not feel threatened that others are able and good, for he or she has a proper self-assurance that comes from knowing that he or she belongs in a greater whole and is diminished when others are humiliated or diminished, when others are tortured or oppressed.”


This post was inspired by Maithri at The Soaring Impulse and by Magnetbabe at Field Lines. I have tried in vain to stick to blog lite. But these issues are too critical and our time too precious. It is the spirit of love and unity that I write these words today. I hope that they are helpful in advancing our dialogue.



Ferry me across the water,
Do, boatman, do.
If you've a penny in your purse
I'll ferry you.

Christina Rossetti

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Celebration

a pre inaugural musical offering


Rockin out with Stevie at the Lincoln memorial


Woodie Guthrie reincarnated.



Pete Seeger at 89 years of age. Proud survivor of the first great depression, the Dust Bowl days, the McCarthy inquisition. "An inconvenient artist” banned from commercial tv for decades. Tireless troubadour for international disarmament, civil rights, and environmental justice.


Still subversive after all these years. With a twinkle in his eye, and with Mitch Miller diligence, he led the crowd in call and response of the Woodie Guthrie classic This Land is your Land. Seizing the opportunity to inject the original lyrics of the song that have been diluted and whitewashed over the years. Eerily poignant today:


There was a big high wall there that tried to stop me;
Sign was painted, it said private property;
But on the back side it didn't say nothing;
That side was made for you and me.

In the shadow of the steeple I saw my people,
By the relief office I seen my people;
As they stood there hungry, I stood there asking
Is this land made for you and me?

Nobody living can ever stop me,
As I go walking that freedom highway;
Nobody living can ever make me turn back
This land was made for you and me.



Rocking out at the Lincoln Memorial on a bright winter day with Stevie Wonder, Usher and Shakira.


Stevie Wonder, transcendent spirit, consummate muse, transmits his Innervision, a chance to move to “Higher Ground” on the stage at the Lincoln Memorial. The hallowed ground where Marian Anderson sang in 1939 after being barred from Constitution Hall and where Martin Luther King delivered his “I Have a Dream” speech.


Stevie on objective optimism.Being optimistic doesn't come by just being there. You've got to see both sides of it so I think I'm pretty objective. Obviously, I know the other side of the coin. I know there are haters, but I think that hating is unacceptable if we want to move forward. We have to find a common goal and a common bond. I think that we can.”


Obama responding to a Rolling Stone interview question asking him to identify his musical heroes. "If I had one, it would have to be Stevie Wonder.”



An ebullient crowd. Shaking off the oppressive mantle of fear, embracing the audacity of hope.


Even though times are hard and unimaginable damage has been done, we take this moment to celebrate together the beginning of a new day. In the open air in a place prepared by a common narrative, we celebrate how far we’ve come together and we gather up our strength for the journey ahead.


Yes we do


Yes we do


Yes we do.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Rockettes

Going to the Radio City Christmas Show was a family tradition when I was growing up. Each year about this time, we would faithfully take 3 subways from the South Bronx where we lived to Radio City Music Hall in Rockefeller Center. We usually arrived early so we could find seats close to the stage. Mitten clad. Bundled from head to toe. Watching our breath crystallize in the frosty air. We waited eagerly on line with all the other families. Lines in NY are usually long but surprisingly orderly… for the most part. Invariably, someone at this much anticipated event would discover a long lost aunt at the head of the queue 15 minutes to show time. New Yorkers are anything but naïve. Everyone knew what was going on but overlooked the peccadillo because after all, it was Christmas. If we were lucky, the chestnut vendor would roll his cart up the street. We would pry off a mitten and warm our fingers against the steamy bag. Crack open the compliant casing rodent style to get to the coveted morsel.


The show was spectacular. Pure magic. Sitting in the front row, we were mesmerized by the synchronized high kicks, the dazzling costumes, the “mighty Wurlitzer” organ pipes chiming stereophonically. The Parade of the Wooden Soldiers was a grand precision number. Meticulously choreographed, human phalanxes kaleidoscopically morphed into starbursts, then converged into a razor sharp line. The performance climaxed as a cannon set off a human chain of dominoes, each dancer collapsing into the one before her.


The Rockettes are not usually associated with “serious” dance. To dispel any misperceptions, here are some remarkable facts about the dance company. During the Christmas season, the group has performed five shows a day, seven days a week, for 75 years. Mark Franko, chief dance critic for the New York Times, described their work as the most “complete abstraction as it is possible for the human body to attain.”


When I heard the Rockettes were coming to the Mall of America, I suggested to my husband that we go to see them. We are not mall goers. In fact, we go out of our way to avoid these curious homogenized meccas of commerce. Curiously, this time, Chris offered no resistance. It was easy to find the dance site, since there was a healthy crowd gathering. The Rockettes were as glamorous as I remembered them to be. Luckily I had my camera. This time I would not leave the experience to memory.


I love candid shots of people. I’m pretty brazen about it. I eased myself through the barricades behind the security line and started clicking the shutter. Here are the results. I hope you enjoy the photos.






More to come soon on rituals and traditions, old and new.


With best wishes to everyone for a new year filled with peace, joy and inspiration.